Happy Birthday David....

Tomorrow would have been David's 22nd Birthday if he would have survived his battle with AIDS, so tomorrow and throughout the rest of the week I am going to wear the ribbon that was given to me at his service, in his memory. Things have been so different now that he's gone, I was telling my husband some things I remembered about him when he was still here, like how he plucked his eyebrows better then I could ever do, and then I saw a car just like his and remembered all his rainbow bumper stickers, God I am going to miss him, you just never realize how much till there gone.

But for him I wanted to say Happy Birthday David where ever you are, and I hope you know I am thinking about you and will celebrate your time here with my own personal quiet celebration.

In other news, not much has changed I took off from work early and spent a couple of in the car hours with hubby, running errands and going to the bank, but I guess with all the work we are doing right now, you kinda have to take advantage of the time you do have, we did decide that if out law suit setttles next year we are taking a trip to Florence, Italy, before it's completely engulfed in water, apparently it's sinking and you have to see it before it's no more. And I think maybe a trip to Paris and or Rome to see the different cultures. I would love to go to the PI, (for you whitey's that's the Phillippine Islands), and see where my family is from, my brother's and my Dad go back every few years, the pics they bring back are amazing, the white beaches and blue waters, the crabs AKA the water monsters as big as me!
I would also love to go to New York to the site of the WTC and just sit there and cry, sounds kinda sickening, but I think it would feel right, ok so I am wierd, but that's how I am, and finally we would like to go to Disneyland and to all the theme parks in SO CAL, I have'nt been since I was 8 and I hear soooo much about how it's changed, but honestly I could care less where we end up, as long as it's together and a vacation!

Well not much else to report, but since I have noticed I am getting more hit's a day, I think I might need to update daily and type more about my daily nothings, should I change the name of this blog? Any ideas, I do know I need to update my profile, it is a little outdated and boring.

If you have any ideas for a new name send them my way, BTW rated G and be nice!

Hugs to you!

Busy Busy Busy!

Well things have been hectic around here, not seeing much of the kids and more of the office, I have become the new manager and now have so many responsibilities I might choke on them! My Area manager says I am very lucky to have made manager in 2 months, he said no one has, and that I am lucky! I dont think it's luck i think it's hard work and the drive!

Things have been ok here at home Dan is working like crazy and staying up for 2 days at a time, which worries me, becasue he spends all his time in his stupid office! He had an interview yesterday, and a possible with Intel in Oregon, we will see though. he just needs to get away from this cheap company that pays an IT manager 16 an hour! What a waste. I make more than my own husband and I dont have a college degree! WTF!

Anyways last Thursday we buried David, it was so hard! The hardest part was his wish to be cremated and not having a person there to actually say goodbye to. He put together pics and things he wanted to say to everyone in the event that he did pass, that hurt like hell, I almost lost it, not becasue of what he said, but because he knew and prepared. His letter to us was one of joy and pain in some ways, he just acknowledged everyone for loving him and standing beside him through the choices he made, and dealing with his stubborness. He thanked everyone for loving him for who he was and accepting him when he told everyone he was sick.

After the service we went to the cemetery and buried his earn next to his great grandmother, his favorite thing in the world was Skittles, so I showed up with every bag of every flavor I could find, when the put him in the ground they grabbed the Skittles and placed them all around his earn.

But enough of that I am going to break down if I keep talking about it, but I know he is with me, and if your here right now David, i only have one thing to say, TASTE THE RAINBOW MY FRIEND, I MISS YOU!

8/30/1983 to 7/26/2005

Afterglow

I'd like the memory of me to be a happy one
I'd like to leave an afterglow of smiles when life is done

I'd like to leave an echo whispering softly down the ways
Of happy times and laughing times and bright and sunny days

I'd like the tears of those who grieve to dry before the sun
Of happy memories that I leave when life is done.

These were the words he wanted to be remembered by......

Anyways, I gotta go I need to grab some ant spray they are all over my house right now and pissing me off, so of to Home Depot I go!

In Memory Of David Morris....

In Memory of David Morris....
It's been a long time since I have posted, but now that I am here, I am posting for David. Rest In Peace my Skittles friend, I will miss you more then you could ever imagine, I will keep my promise to you, I will find a cure, or I may find the truth that leads to the cure, but for you David, it will all be for you....

I am having a hard time believeing that I will never hear your voice again, or see your smile, the hardest part will be going to the store everyday and seeing your favorite bag of Skittles at the register without breaking down inside. I will miss your e mails and your "Oh my God's", but most of all worrying about you taking your meds or having a seizure on your drive home from work.

I don't understand why it has to end, but your friendship and my memories of you will last for eternity, so on Thursday I wont be saying goodbye, it will be until we meet again, I will cross that Rainbow one day, just be there waiting for me, promise?

I hope you know how much we love you, and why I was always coming down on you, but I wanted what was best for you, I wanted you to stay longer, we all wanted to hold onto you and save you from the pain, but you did'nt want that, and that I can
understand. I understand how much it hurt for you to give up on yourself, I understand that you felt no one understood, but we did, and we still do, and I want you to know, that I will hold on to that feeling for the rest of my life.

You have given me so much more then you could ever imagine, when you came to me and told me you were sick, and then asked me If I still loved you, I loved you so much more then you could ever imagine! I loved you for your honesty, I loved you because you trusted me, but I loved you more for your courage, courage that I have never truly seen until that day, and for that I owe you so much....

David Morris, God has a special place for you, he gave you a special place on Earth to touch so many, and now I have an Angel beside me to lead me in the right direction, you served your purpose here, and I thank God he brought you to me.

In Loving Memory of a True Friend

David Morris

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IF YOU WANT TO JOIN ME OR MAKE A DONATION GO TO MY WEB PAGE......


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We have officially moved!

Well today is Friday the 28th and we are amongst a sea of boxes! We are moving inot our new home and starting all over again! its been awhile since i have updated but we are sincerely busy, not like anyone is reading anyways, so i am just thinking out loud, on that note when we are done unpacking and getting our new home all set up i am planning a big party for all of our friends... so if your our friend expect an invite if not then dont expect one...

Anywho well after we are settled i will update daily so stay tuned I am going to get my own web address and site hopefully and create a blog from scratch!

OMG He is just too cute!

The Hubby said...
It has been a wonderful 2 years... wonderful to love and be loved. The feeling of acceptance not just from the woman I love but with her children. And to think that with all my inperfects (and there's a lot) that these perfect strangers accepted me and loved me for who I am. I never in my life thought that somebody could love so much. And to be willing to give up everything just to to see their little smiling faces. I know that today is our anniversary and that it is supposed to be our day. And even though my heart races everytime I see you and aches when I away... I still feel that I owe so much to our family to the love our little motley bunch gave so eagerly.

Evan my little prodigy... so big for his shoes. Gets on my nerves a lot and can't clean his room... demands to see the scary movies then turns on every light in the house because he NOT afarid of the dark. I love you with all my heart!

Tori my super model / actress 7 going on 13. Who always seems to capture my heart with her devious smile... Tells her school that we starve her and make her go to school when she's sick... I love you with all me heart!

AJ my little lovey dovey football playing mutant turtle... Who is never afraid to show emotion even when you don't want him to... like when he can't get his way... But is always there for his little sissy... I love you with all my heart!

Daisy my little singer... so full of energy... The daughter I wish I had. Know every lyric to every song from pop, rock, M&M, to every cartoony... I only wish I could spend more time with you. I love you with all my heart!

Aariona my little brown eyed princess. Those droopy eyes and pretty smile... She'll cry for hours if you leave and not give her hug kiss. Hides in the corner because she doesn't want you to know she's pooping in her pants. I love you with all my heart!

Bella wow what can I say... My little rollie pollie... Always getting in to things and always giving you the biggest toothless smile when you walk in the room. Keeps me up at night, snatches my glasses, claws my face, trys to shove anything and everything in her mouth just to choke on it... I love you with all my heart!

Empera my reason for living and excuse for staying home. I could never forget you. You always been by my side even in the bad times. You've always stood by me. I never thought somebody could have such throwing skills. The way you fling vaccumes and irons with such grace and still have time to have awesome 5 hour make up sex. The one who picks off every lint ball off my shirt and fixes my thining hair while telling me how sexy I am. I am her favorite shopping buddy as long as we shop in the ladies dept. Telling you I love is never habitual. I love you for everything! You have shown me so much in the last two years. Something no one could ever show me. You've shown me that it doesn't matter how big our family is or how little money we have... that as long as we have each other, that all that matters. I know that I have something that most people search all their lives for and never find it. I will never take you for granted.

I never thought I would be able to love as much as I do now. And I know that I owe that to you and our little, somewhat dysfuntional, quarky family. And every time someone says OMFG when I tell them how big our family is. I'll have a huge smile on the inside... knowing that I have so much to love and live for.

My love is yours for eternity...

Your Hubby,
Daniel

6:41 PM

Happy Anniversary, Honey!

Today is our 2nd Anniversary! I can truley say it has been a wonderful 2 years too! So this post is for you honey!

Two years ago today I said "I Do" and I meant every word, tho only two little words they are the two most important words, other than I Love You that I could ever say! I fell in love with my best friend, my soulmate, on this day I promised to Love, Honor, and Cherish you for as long as we both live, and those vows I will never forget. I look at our short life together, and how wonderful things have been. The short and long journeys we have traveled together, and the many more to come. I could never imagine my life without you, nor can I fathom the thought of losing you. My life is now complete, the chapter that was missing has now been fulfilled with stories of laughter, love, children, and friends. I will always remember the little things you do for me, tho you think I don't remember them, the rose petal bubble baths that I didn't take because I was to tired to get off the bed, the carriage ride thru town, helping me get off the bed in the mornings, because my belly was to big to get up, tying my shoes because my back was out and I could'nt bend over to tie them, those little things that I have taken advantage of, Putting up with me when I need my Hair and Nails done, Yelling at you because it's your fault that I am too fat to fit in the new clothes I just bought!

Little things you do everyday to show me how much you care! I know it does'nt seem like a big thing, but to get a kiss from you every morning before you walk out the door, and telling me you love me, tho it can sometimes be just habit, it means alot, especially if for some reason you don't come back.

I meant it when I said my life is now complete, you and Bella have given me another chance at happiness that no one has ever done.. I hope you know how much I Love You and will always remember that. Thank you for being who you are, and allowing me to be me. Loving me with all you've got, and loving me without prejudice!

You are truley a Knight and shining armour, steed or not, you will always be my prince, castle or cardboard box, white horse or gold Geo, I love you just the way you are, and will for the rest of eternity, (even if the Cancer kills you first, I will smoke an extra pack a day to be with just you!)

I Love you Daniel, and know I will love you for many more Anniversaries to come!